Of Course, it rained back then and it’s raining now. It doesn’t help. So, I’ll think about maths instead. And if I were a mathematician, I’d talk about my Universal Set and it would be labelled with the 14th letter of the Greek alphabet, ξ, called Xi (pronounced zai or ‘ksai).

And I would draw on my page with a black pen and I would sketch out the overlapping circles, two of them, and call then A and B. It would be simple, clean and organised, unlike the chaos in my mind. Still, if I were a mathematician, I would control this. And A would be the set of a mother and B would be the set of a husband and I would represent them thus,

B = {Husband}

And I would consider each set with their myriad features of all the moments from our world, then they would overlap. And to be honest if I were a mathematician, it would be in the act of overlapping, where I’d find the greatest ease and I would be thankful. I would be grateful that I could simply label it as the intersection between A and B and I would represent it thus,

A∩B = {Loss}

It is much easier to compartmentalise the world in terms of number, to think with logic and use rigor every day and I would sit back in my swivel chair, chew on the end of my pen and admire my work. Overlapping circles, that is all, just some lines on a page to represent a world. And if I were a mathematician, I would say,

and hence, let us consider the union of A with B, and I would label it thus,

A ∪ B = {Qualities, values, beliefs}

And letters would represent the bedrock and catalyst in my world. And I would say, and thus, A and B are subsets of the Universal Set, both distinct from each other yet similar in their impact on my world and the overlap in the middle is the places where they merged.

And if I were a mathematician, I would I look at the Universal Set and label it thus,

ξ = {Love}

Life would be so much easier if I were a mathematician.

But, it’s still raining out there and if I were a writer, I’d say, my clouds know just what to do.