How did I organise and shake hands?

How did I close the door when they left?

How did I take him to school?

How did I see faces from the old world?

How did I put on an expression?

How did I stumble to their arms?

How did I get off the floor?

How did I get through the firsts?

How did I talk to our son?

How did a counsellor sit on our settee?

How did I sleep?

How did I get out of bed?

How did I crawl for food?

How did I find a community?

How did I change routines?

How did I keep appointments?

How did I take on his jobs?

How did I stand waiting?

How did I sit by an empty chair?

How did I walk through our town?

How did I make decisions?

How did I pack?

How did I travel?

How did I look over the balcony?

How did I stand at the top of the mountain?

How did I return?

How did I get through the memories?

How did I get through the responsibilities?

How did I continue with commitments?

How did I sit at the swimming gala?

How did I listen to him playing to the crowd?

How did I find my voice at parent’s evening?

How did I watch the Nativity?

How did I wrap presents?

How did I make a new Christmas?

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How do I support him?

How do I sustain?

How do I continue?

How do I exist?

How do I live?

How do I age?

How do I pass through time?

How do I hold on?

How do I let go?

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*How do I do it all again?*

How do I look to the light?

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How do I breathe?